麦仔=>cold cold world

Everybody has it.

when you’re in his/her area of effect, ur mood will be constantly drained until you achieved the same point of blue mood with the person affecting you.

I dont have the ability to pass happiness onto others…. trying not to let others ppl with down mood affecting me it’s already a tenious exercise.

The point is, everytime the person with aura of depression starts to sigh, there will be another three more sighs around. It’s almost like a domino effect. Once it’s triggered, it’ll continue until the last one is down.

Therefore i figured out that if these people do not figure out that keeping a hobby or have a great laugh can get them out of this, then i would have to do something to keep myself happy. Until i have the power to cheer ppl up, i would just try to learn to cheer myself up, rite?

After i acheived that, then only i say "up yours!"

This few days i saw some minor changes within myself.

Everything i see is getting slower & softer.

The traffic, the pace of my mind, the sound of music, the yelling.

Even time.

dunno whether it’s a good thing or not? but hey as if i got the power to change that…. maybe just to accept the way things are right now?

Maybe i just started to realise my true self in my hometown after i got reacquainted(this looked wrong….what’s the actual spelling ar?)

To be more of myself.

Bringing out the "hack care attitude" in me.

The previous post is the lyric of a song that i recently heard.

It’s not a very popular song, written by some guy named Young Craig & Valiandinghamsara.

and the thing is I cant help to think that what the song carried really suits my mood and thinking.

Can’t help but I was thinking throughout the whole journey, that we’re struggling to produce a better outcome for our relationship.

Of course, there are sweet and sour memories throughout our relationship. and again, I cant help to think that if we’re really destined to be together…. if it’s destined to be true love….. we wouldnt struggle at all? it would be so perfect.

maybe… All the while i was made to believe that this would work out.

Maybe… I didnt believe it from the moment we started?

And we tried as we may, but we know we cant be that way….

To make love… but not to make believe….

Maybe somebody reading this post will start "oh look at this pervert guy" stuffs…

I need to clarify this bcoz from where i came from ppl are still a bit conservative…. or immature to put it one way.

make love doesnt necessary means having sex… in this case it means … make love. Literally.

oh well, as the song goes….

I have something i like to say, since i always turned speechless everytime we see each other.

I really treasured the moment we’ve been together.

You make me grew, a lot. whether you know it or not.

I loved you. thank you.

I couldn’t help notice, you watching them holding each other

You tried to hide your sentimental thought

But the truth is faithful so willing and able to last girl…

How long will we be something we’re not

Oh and try as we may, We know we’ll never be that way

Cause they make love but we just make believe…

But the truth is faithful so willing and able to last girl…

How long will we be something we’re not

Oh but try as we may, We know we’ll never be that way

Cause they make love but we just make believe…

They make love but we just make believe.

Sometimes it’s easy just stifle the needs within us

and settle for the comfort of me and you

I guess we could make it if not for the subtle reminders

Of what we give to feel the way they do

Woke up today with a headache.

That’s the reason why i refused to get out of bed and to work.

So, i ended up turning to work status only after 10 am.

and now it’s almost lunch time already… taking away the time that I slacked here and there…. taking my own sweet time eating breakfast…. not much has been done.

Hate this type of lifestyle, but i kept wondering why i have this headache in the first place? Maybe it’s time to watch my diet, sleep earlier, drink more water….

Maybe

I just need to keep on moving, and stop thinking about yesterday.

It’s been a while since i last updated this weblog.

A lotta things happened when i was "away" from here…..

I’ve graduated.

We’ve broke up.

Things fell apart.

I have a new identity of life… meaning no more "student" status.

I’d hate to admit that i love being a student.

being a student means you have the privilege to go wrong, extremely wrong. Now it’s no more. at least for the moment.

Going out from college…… finding a new path of life…

this is all very sudden, a little bit rush…. but i have no time to waste as I’ll be turning 22 very very soon.(no, this is not a reminder for frens to send in my 22nd birthday gifts, though it’s very obvious ^^ and yes, that includes YOU!)

Thus i’ve written this blog to remind myself about things i want to achieve short term, meaning this year before i go overseas to study cum yr 2007.

To put it as simple, I want to be a better man. I want to be the angel of my own life as well as others. I want to gain more self-confidence. I want to achieve something.

Well, let’s not put anytime to waste now….

although i dunno how long will this positive mindset will get me going. At least having it for a start is not a bad thing at all. Motivation gets us started, Habits gets us going….. hopefully this is to the latter.

Cheers.

Yes sirrie~~

everything comes to an end.

im going to graduate from Southern College soon.

and ironically, i said still have more boring mondays to go in my previous post.

and before i realize, woosh~~

last day of school……

now is revision week for the whole school

a lotta people went back home.

I dont envy them, since i’ll be going back after this.

well, i think "leaving" will be more appropriate.

no more going backs from JB from now onwards, i think?

at least not from SC already.

Our department organized a farewell especially just for us.

in the end, many of us cried.

I dont know how to describe that moment.

Most of them were weeping until you feel kinda out of place if you keep your eyes dry….but then i dont cry.

Not so much feeling actually…. is it because that i went through this a lotta times already?

I can almost still remember room 209- 218 u noe? ( eton hall, sg)

that night, that last night.

that night Luke told me…" God i feel like crying leh….."

i still didnt cry that time, at least not in front of them, Luke, Shuen Ming they all.

It all comes to an end somehow.

but i think deep down inside i cherish everybody that i met, loved, hated, cried upon, smiled unto…. etc……

maybe i can tell everybody what i truly felt here….

since not much ppl check my frenster blog… hehe~~

in my next post maybe.

it all comes to an end.

I have to stress.

It’s my first time doing this.

Apart from being bored, i don’t quite fancy the idea of us taking a common subject(microsoft access) for our last semester in SC.

I should be grateful that the com lab offers internet connection during class, basically everyone is doing something apart from listening to the lecturer of course.(jiajie sitting beside me is humming away along her mp3 player….)

it’s another boring monday….

and more to go…..

it’s been a while since i updated my friendster english blog.

apart from being busy, im just being lazy.

the funny thing is when i log in my friendster today i recieved two msg from long lost frenZ. I see it as a blessing since it’s such gr8 joy having nice frens who still remembers you, and the intention of the msgs is just to check how you’re doing….

i m so appriciated….and honored~thanks yoong wei and minyee….

many had happened these days…. yulian boycotted the economic rice store in the cafeteria as i did months ago since the tauke overcharged her.We ended up eating noodles and bread for lunch most of the time, and got out dinner as frequent as possible….

I heard that Junior Jaycees is coming into the college…. though i cannot really agree with the candidate for the president and founder.but then im just going to ignore it… not that it has to do anything with me…. but i’d have fine memories during my secondary yrs in this society, which i really do not think it will work out as fine as my sec. sch.

Access midterm is next week, as well as "shi jing" test…..

and i tought my final semester will be a breezE? (it is la….)

My presentation for this semester seems endless…. already every subject require us to present…..and this time i have to do it in English~?!

Who asked you to take Translation? haiz~~

luckily my group did well, and we’re making progresses and all of them from DOE are nice ppl~!

staying up late at night seems to be more common for me nowadays, since the connection is less jammed up during early morn…

hopefully i can apply for streamyx when i got home….but there’s a big possibility that my dad will object….hell, as if i care…haha~

Thanks for the lovely rocky cat~(it’s a cat made of rock, thus the name)my daughter gave it to me~ it’s now sitting quietly on top of my monitor….

sleepy times,  so i’ll stop here~

miss home,

miss mom and dad,

miss food~

DECENT food…. haha

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz………..