麦仔=>cold cold world

This few days i saw some minor changes within myself.

Everything i see is getting slower & softer.

The traffic, the pace of my mind, the sound of music, the yelling.

Even time.

dunno whether it’s a good thing or not? but hey as if i got the power to change that…. maybe just to accept the way things are right now?

Maybe i just started to realise my true self in my hometown after i got reacquainted(this looked wrong….what’s the actual spelling ar?)

To be more of myself.

Bringing out the "hack care attitude" in me.

The previous post is the lyric of a song that i recently heard.

It’s not a very popular song, written by some guy named Young Craig & Valiandinghamsara.

and the thing is I cant help to think that what the song carried really suits my mood and thinking.

Can’t help but I was thinking throughout the whole journey, that we’re struggling to produce a better outcome for our relationship.

Of course, there are sweet and sour memories throughout our relationship. and again, I cant help to think that if we’re really destined to be together…. if it’s destined to be true love….. we wouldnt struggle at all? it would be so perfect.

maybe… All the while i was made to believe that this would work out.

Maybe… I didnt believe it from the moment we started?

And we tried as we may, but we know we cant be that way….

To make love… but not to make believe….

Maybe somebody reading this post will start "oh look at this pervert guy" stuffs…

I need to clarify this bcoz from where i came from ppl are still a bit conservative…. or immature to put it one way.

make love doesnt necessary means having sex… in this case it means … make love. Literally.

oh well, as the song goes….

I have something i like to say, since i always turned speechless everytime we see each other.

I really treasured the moment we’ve been together.

You make me grew, a lot. whether you know it or not.

I loved you. thank you.

I couldn’t help notice, you watching them holding each other

You tried to hide your sentimental thought

But the truth is faithful so willing and able to last girl…

How long will we be something we’re not

Oh and try as we may, We know we’ll never be that way

Cause they make love but we just make believe…

But the truth is faithful so willing and able to last girl…

How long will we be something we’re not

Oh but try as we may, We know we’ll never be that way

Cause they make love but we just make believe…

They make love but we just make believe.

Sometimes it’s easy just stifle the needs within us

and settle for the comfort of me and you

I guess we could make it if not for the subtle reminders

Of what we give to feel the way they do

Woke up today with a headache.

That’s the reason why i refused to get out of bed and to work.

So, i ended up turning to work status only after 10 am.

and now it’s almost lunch time already… taking away the time that I slacked here and there…. taking my own sweet time eating breakfast…. not much has been done.

Hate this type of lifestyle, but i kept wondering why i have this headache in the first place? Maybe it’s time to watch my diet, sleep earlier, drink more water….

Maybe

I just need to keep on moving, and stop thinking about yesterday.

It’s been a while since i last updated this weblog.

A lotta things happened when i was "away" from here…..

I’ve graduated.

We’ve broke up.

Things fell apart.

I have a new identity of life… meaning no more "student" status.

I’d hate to admit that i love being a student.

being a student means you have the privilege to go wrong, extremely wrong. Now it’s no more. at least for the moment.

Going out from college…… finding a new path of life…

this is all very sudden, a little bit rush…. but i have no time to waste as I’ll be turning 22 very very soon.(no, this is not a reminder for frens to send in my 22nd birthday gifts, though it’s very obvious ^^ and yes, that includes YOU!)

Thus i’ve written this blog to remind myself about things i want to achieve short term, meaning this year before i go overseas to study cum yr 2007.

To put it as simple, I want to be a better man. I want to be the angel of my own life as well as others. I want to gain more self-confidence. I want to achieve something.

Well, let’s not put anytime to waste now….

although i dunno how long will this positive mindset will get me going. At least having it for a start is not a bad thing at all. Motivation gets us started, Habits gets us going….. hopefully this is to the latter.

Cheers.